I woke up this morning, and just was all over the place, this way & that way. Talk about squirrel, shiny object syndrome, whatever you want to call it. It was just like, Whoa! What do I got to do here to slow it down and get a little clearer.
My head was spinning. My heart was beating too fast. I just felt like I had so much to do, so much I wanted to do, and I didn’t want to do all of it, and I wanted a simpler life, and I wanted less electronics, and I didn’t want to have to be everywhere all the time, and I wanted to clutter clear, and I wanted… hell I wasn’t sure what I wanted!
Freedom, that was the first word that came to mind and I was like, what the hell is all this?
I usually pay pretty close attention to the moon, but this time it kind of caught up or snuck up on me, and I wasn’t quite ready. So yes, it’s definitely the moon if I get a little off or not sure which way I’m going, or what I’m doing, or why I’m doing things I check in and it’s usually moon related.
So we are experiencing a new moon in Sagittarius. I looked it up. I am not a moon expert. I just know that it does affect me, and here is what google shared with me “Everything is easy easy. Let your worries go.” Well for somebody that’s a type A personality and recovering OCD; I don’t just let worries go, but I’ve been stressing and worrying and overthinking things, and I know what causes it, and I know what to do about it, and I know all the lines and the affirmations. But yep, it catches up with me sometimes, sneaks up on me, or I just fall off the wagon!
So what are those lines? You hear them all the time – sometimes they’re good, and sometimes they just drive me crazy. What’s your Why? Well really, isn’t your Why; what you do most of the time when it makes you feel good when it makes you feel like you’re in alignment, when you’re in your energy, when you’re doing the things you love to do, and why you love to do them,
And then they tell you to read your affirmations like once a day, maybe twice, and some say more! Okay. But some days that just doesn’t work. And then to meditate and sometimes that doesn’t work. Or you don’t manifest what you want you manifest what you believe. You must take a hundred percent responsibility, and on and on and on the lines go and when you’re in the state that I was in this morning none of that shit is gonna work for you today. It’s just not going to slow you down. So what do you do?
Well, I just forced (yes forced) myself to take a break, locked myself in what I call my crystal room or my little sacred space, and just kind of sat quiet for a while, and then I did a couple of guided meditations, because I knew my head wasn’t in the space to do anything that wasn’t guided. I was not in a calm state.
So what I realized is, I’ve been on a bit of the hamster wheel again, and I haven’t been doing my stuff. I haven’t been doing my rituals or my meditations, and I haven’t been journaling. Now I don’t usually journal consistently, anyway, but I haven’t been doing any of it. I wasn’t walking the talk.
I haven’t been listening to my body or my energy levels, and I haven’t been keeping track of what element I’m in. Am I in earth, fire, water, air, Each of those elements affects how we go about our day. I was just powering through without any intention, so I just wasn’t being committed. I wasn’t being responsible for what I wanted.
I wasn’t paying attention to the changes I wanted to make. I wasn’t paying attention to myself; to what’s important to me.
So we all know that change can be scary and messy, and it’s hard; but believe me staying stuck is harder.
And if you know me, my favourite mantra is: No Rules, Only Tools.
So today, on this new moon we have a choice. Normally, I’m all about encouraging you to do the exercises answer the important questions, dig deep, get really specific. And if that’s what would work for you now today, then just let me know, and I’ll share more about those processes. But for me today, what’s going to work today is good old fashioned start where you’re at.
Step 1 – What do you want? What are your desires? What are your dreams?
So what do I want? That’s the first question. What do you want?
You can go through all of it, and you can dig deep, and you can be specific and follow all of the guidelines, and be super dialed in.
But for right now for me. I’m choosing to just start moving forward towards whatever my final destination is. I don’t mean final on this, I just meet final for the next little while, without being dialed in, or specific and not worrying about the obstacles and blocks, which is usually Step 2.
Step 2 – What are your obstacles? What are your blocks.
I could come up with a ton of things but I am going to choose to just deal with them. I’m just going to be unstoppable. It isn’t time for me to dig too deep, because right now all I would be doing is making excuses.
So, is that where you’re at? If it’s helpful for you to dig deep and be specific. Then by all means that’s the route for you and I fully support you. But for some people, sometimes; it’s I know there are blocks and I know there are obstacles, and if I focus on those right now I’m going to use those to stop me and then they just become excuses.
Step 3 – Taking Action
Step three is usually the action, the moving forward part. What’s the one thing you could do today? What’s one thing you could do tomorrow? What’s one thing you could do this week, this month, and on and on it goes.
But the distance between our dreams and our reality is action. Life is messy and that’s okay. And for some life is a heck of a lot messier than others. But that’s life. So just do something, make one action step, make one positive step towards where you think you would like to be.
You don’t have to go there. When you get halfway there you can always course correct. You can always change the plan. You can always remap like with the GPS. You just a U-turn or do a little circle and she re-routes you.
Any change, big or small; takes commitment. It takes time and it takes energy.
But the most important thing is to take is that first step of action, whatever that might be.
Each and every day of these changes will be different, your feelings, your reactions, your energy, everything will be different. You’ll experience highs, you’ll experience lows sometimes minor and sometimes major.
Honour yourself, honour, your energy, honour your body. Listen to your intuition, your body, your heart, your muscles, your stomach, listen to what you are being told and course correct. A little bit here and there, but keep moving forward. Today. I could have spun in circles for hours, and accomplished piss all but that wasn’t going to get me to where I want to be.
So…I stepped away from it. No point in going in circles, no point in chasing my tail, I wasn’t going to get anything accomplished anyway, so just step away from it. Give it some time to settle. Give yourself some space to breathe. Give yourself some time to feel frustrated, to feel angry, to feel sorry for yourself, to be pissed off at somebody. Allow yourself to feel whatever you’re feeling. Just give yourself some space and some time, and then find ways that fit with you that help you navigate these crazy moments; it might be meditating. journaling, exercise, music, rest, a bath, hot tea, cocoa, glass of wine, walk outside, digging in the garden, throwing snowballs…. whatever it is give yourself a little bit of space. Cut yourself some slack. We’ve gone through enough. We’re still going through a lot. People are just way too over the top. We’re overcooked. We’re over done.
It’s like when you take the turkey out of the oven of Christmas, you don’t start cutting into it right away. You gotta let the little guy rest. Otherwise it will fall apart.
A fave way for me to slow it down is to sit and gaze at your crystal, look for messages. Crystals can help you get back in alignment & grounded. Take a bit of time. Let the stuff settle.
Otherwise. I was just kicking up dirt. It’s like being at the beach, and the guy runs by and the sand all flies all over you. That’s what I was doing and that’s not what I hope for you.
I encourage you to take one tiny, bold step every day for as long as it takes to get you where you want to be.
And if the whole process of taking it all in answering those questions, one at a time, and digging really deep, and being really honest and being really specific isn’t going to work for you right now then don’t sweat it, change it.
There are no rules. Remember, it’s got to be what works for you. And yes, I’ve done those exercises, and I’ve gone deep, and I know most of my why’s most of the time, not always. But sometimes life throws a switch into things, and then we just have to change it up. So don’t let those little boxes stop you from making progress.
You are unstoppable. You do have a choice. You get to choose, and yes, you are a 100% responsible.
So if you go nowhere, that’s okay, too. That is your choice
For me – my choice is, I’m going to flip things on their ass and make some major changes, but i’m not going to worry about the how or where it’s going. I know where I want my end destination, so to speak, to be how that all happens.
I can’t map that all out right now, so all I can do one little action at a time, and then the next one, so something as simple as I’m doing some clutter clearing and some downsizing.
I put something small & manageable into action, and that’s what I want for you.
Make it work for you. We get so involved in the processes and the exercises, and telling your story and writing it down, and meeting all of these criteria that we become immobilized. And I think that’s how I felt this morning was immobilized with ten thousand things all swirling around in my head.
I hope this gives you a new perspective or a different perspective, or even just gives you permission to just say back off that doesn’t work for me right now. I’m gonna do it my way.
I super appreciate you and welcome any & all feedback 💎